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Written at Wednesday, April 30, 2008 | back to top

1-[ ] Your bubblegum falls when you talk
2-[ ] Your bubblegum has fallen off your mouth though you are not speaking
3-[ x ] You have hit with a door or something transparent
4-[ ] You have thrown yourself off a moving vehicle.
5-[ x ] You have thought in something funny, start laughing about it and ppl stare at you weirdly XD
6-[ x] You have hit with a tree while walking
7-[ ] It’s possible to lick your elbow
8-[ x ] When you read this you tried to lick it
9-[ x] You have never noticed that the “abc song” and twinkle twinkle little star have the same tone
10-[x ] When you read no.9 you sang them
11-[ x ] You have tripped with your shoelaces.
12-[ x ] You have chocked with your own saliva.
13-[ x] You have watched the matrix movie and didn’t understand it it
14-[ x ] You didn’t notice that I repeated the word “it” in the previous number
15-[ ] You have just returned to see if it was true
16-[ ] Your hair is blond or dark-blond
17-[ x ] People have called you slow
18-[ x] You have set fire to something accidentally
19-[ ] Sometimes you leave your mouth open without thinking
20-[ x] You have fallen asleep during class.
21-[ ] Sometimes you stop thinking
22-[ x ] Sometimes you forget what you were talking about
23-[ ] People stares at you weirdly and go away from you
24-[ x] Very often you are told to listen the little voice in your head
26-[ ] You use your fingers to do simple substractions or sums
27-[] You have eaten an insect.
28-[ x ] You are doing this while you were supposed to be doing smthng important
29-[ ] You have wore your clothes wrong side
30-[ ] You have looked for smthing and it was in your hand all the time
31-[ x ] You send chain mails becoz you are afraid of those things happening
32-[ x ] You lose stuff very easily and often.
33-[ ] Your friends know that they shouldn’t use long words while speaking with you.
34-[ x ] You hit your head with your hand when you get confused.
35-[x ] You have fell of the chair.
36-[ ] When you are laying on your bed staring at the roof you try to find figures in the roof’s texture.
36-[ ] You repeat too often “ummmm..” when you’re speaking.
37-[ x ] You are afraid of smthing very very stupid
38-[ x ] It’s hard to count the “x” you got.

TOTAL 1: 11
39-[ ] You had to count again
40-[ x ] You are asking why does it says 'TOTAL 1:11'
41-[ x ] You didn’t notice that no.36 was written twice and they are really stupid things

I've done 24/42 stupid things! Should I be worried?
I give this survey or test 5/5 pandas(pixelpixelpixelpixelpixel )

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♥Location: In my room

♥Mood: worried
♥Music: Wild Soul-Changmin(my husband...whom I'm upset with-darn those pics!)

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Written at Sunday, April 27, 2008 | back to top

Ok, well, Namia(Hero's cousin) told me on her blog to take this survey so I shall

1) when do i want to get married?
A: About 24 or 26. Doesn't really matter.

2) what i want the most now?
A: To go to the mall or to see Changmin<3>

3) who is the person you trust the most?

A:My BF,Kay

4) do you think you have enough confidence?
A:Not really. It depends on my mood.

5) if you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
A:To meet and touch Changmin
That or become a singer.

6) do you believe seeing a rainbow after the rain?

7) what are you afraid to lose that right now?
A:Lose what?

8) do you believe in eternity love?

9) if you meet someone you love,will you confess to him/her?
A:Well, I would be very very shy but in the end, yes I would confess to him.

10) list out 3 good points of the person who tagged you..
A:Funny,nice and caring!

11) what are the requirements do you wish from the other half?
A:His commitment,love and trust

12) what type pf person you hate the most?
A:Liars,backstabber,and two faced people...basically fake people.

13) do you cherish every friendship of yours?

14) do you believe in god?
A:Of course.

15) what do you think the most important thing in your life?
A:My family,friend,Changmin

16) do you find the needs to have a boyfriend?
A:Um..I guess
17) at this point of time, would you rather be a heartbreaker or heartbroken?
A:Well, I was heartbroken a few weeks,ago(Don't wanna talk about it) So, I'd rather be the heartbreaker.

18) what kind of friend do you want to be in your friend's eye?
A:The cool,caring,and shy one.

19) describe the person who tag you in 6 words...
A:Sweet,nice,awesome,a good friend,fan girl,and honest.

20) the place you wanted to go most with your loved ones.
A:Japan,China or Korea

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*I give this survey 4 pandas out of five(pixel
♥Location: In my room

♥Mood: happy
♥Music: What a feeling-Namie Amuro

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Well, I decide to change my blog look. It's different right? Yeah, I know what your thinking too much black,right? Or too much changmin,right? Well, I can't help it. Black makes everything look good and me and Changmin were married, I definitely can't help that. Anyway, today I just ate,yelled at people and design. This is not a normal day, and the sad thing is that tomorrow I may have to go to school sad
Luckily, after school, I'm free to do whatever I want
♥Location: In my room

♥Mood: sleepy
♥Music: Automatic-Utada Hikaru

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Written at Saturday, April 26, 2008 | back to top

Well, I haven't blog-ed or posted in a while here, like 3 days to be exact and I really missed blogging. So far I missed: Changmin saying he wants to marry me...againlol (Rai is awesome! XD) and I missed going to the mall with my other friend. Yesterday, I was at my friend's house. And we basically talked about boys. It's funny because when I was the tennis court I saw this guy without his shirt on and we playing and...(enough said) and we was really cute so...I guess I might have stared at him really long because he was all staring and waving at me and in the end I ended up shaking his hand...I hope you know this is the short ver. The long ver. is too much to bare. Plus, I don't think my husband,Changmin, would like me discuss this,haha.
Well, anyway, today, I did nothing but walk around,eat,read,play video games,type,laugh,and watch Changmin, oh yeah and pretend I was a serial killer. Basically, a normal day
♥Location: In my room
♥Mood: content
♥Music: Two Hearts- Shim Changmin (my lover <3...seriously)

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Written at Wednesday, April 23, 2008 | back to top

I'm very proud of myself. I'm still learning Korean and Japanese. Yeah, I'm still learning Japanese and so far, I'm very far in my studies. But I'm still a little shy to use it on my blog and actually speak it to people. Even though I do occasionally speak to my friend who is trying to learn it and also my mom who wanted to hear some Japanese. I am a very shy person I can't just do certain things in public. The only things I can do in public is use my baby voice or "sweet voice". Many people fall for this voice. I even fall for it. But my friends and some of my family members know this is not my real voice. I started growing into this voice when I was 3rd grade or 4th when I had moved. So every since I've been using it more and more. But sometimes I drop it and people get very shocked.
The other day laugh I forgot to tell you that that boy I was crushing on,Kevin. He wants to take to prom but I don't think I want to go with him, actually I don't want to go to prom at all because it's probably not going to happen because the call of '08 at my school is being very horrible. But can you blame them it almost the end of the year. If I were them I would be trying to pull up all of my grades.
Also, I think I'm a very bad daughter. Why? Well, tomorrow I kind of have this big Science test. But tomorrow is also "Bring your kid to work day" so I want to go to work with my mom, this is very rare because me and mom don't see each other on a regular basis we only see each other on weekends because she works so hard. So I think that maybe I should take off one of these test to spend time with her and maybe even get her a nice mother's day gift. I really want to get a her a nice mother's day gift for all her hard work. I wonder what to give her. I would give her jewelry but she hates jewelry. The only thing closet to jewelry she really wears are this hard. I have to keep thinking. I might have to use all the money in Changmin Fund to give her a nice gift. Well, anyway, I wonder what Changmin would do in a case like this? He would probably go to school,right?
♥Location: In my room
♥Mood: confused
♥Music: Two Hearts- Shim Changmin (my lover <3)

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Written at Monday, April 21, 2008 | back to top

I just realized some new things about myself. I cry very easily now, except whenever I'm around my father. When I'm around him all I want to do is kill him or just say something really rude and runaway. Lately, that's been on my mind a lot also, running away to one of my friend's house. I know they sense a lot of trouble at home. Anyway, yup, I think this or the next thing might be the last straw for me. My dad, whenever he gets mad he always chokes or hits me and this isn't good. I really want to call the cops on him for child abuse but I know my mom would probably be really mad at me. Luckily, I have a blog to let things out...
Well, on a happier note, me and Changmin's marriage is going along just fine. He came back to Japan a few days ago and now we can eat again lol
Oh yeah, about the Juno movie, I like it it's really interesting, I'm kind of tired, I'll tell you more about it tomorrow or later on today. I also changed the blog music again to my husband's song, I really like this song. I also like WILD SOUL,too.
♥Location: In my room
♥Mood: sleepy
♥Music: Somebody to Love-TVXQ/DBSK

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Written at Sunday, April 20, 2008 | back to top

Today, since I'm bored I'm going to start watching this movie called Juno. At first when I heard and saw the movie I really wanted to see it, but sadly I thought my mom wouldn't want to buy it for me, but she did anyway, so I'm happy about that. I didn't watch it yet, but today I'm going to start watching it and hopefully I'll really like it
Today is the earliest I woke up, I'm very surprised at myself. It's 7:50 at the moment and the morning looks so pretty. Don't worry, I'll try to take a picture. Today, I should have a very peaceful day but just in case I have books,food and more movies to keep me company.
♥Location: In my room
♥Mood: awake
♥Music: My Girlfriend-Micky Yoochun(TVXQ/DBSK)

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Written at Saturday, April 19, 2008 | back to top

Lately, I've been reading up on blood types. And so far I think I'm between O and AB. I think I'm really a AB because they are cool,controlled, and can't forgive anyone if they did something bad. Then I think I'm O because I can never finish too many things I start,and they are said to be cruel. I was a little cruel in 6th grade. I really hated that grade,too. Anyway, oh, would you like know about me and Changmin? Well, sadly he left me in Japan. He went back to Korea to attend something and gave me a bracelet to remember him by. It's a really pretty one,too. I have the picture to prove it also. Anyway, he told me to keep this relationship a secret,so that what I plan to do,. Even though I am a little sad,today.

♥Location: In my room
♥Mood: sad
♥Music: Resonant Blue-Morning Musume

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Written at Wednesday, April 16, 2008 | back to top

I'm currently watching this t-drama called: The X-family and it's really good! I really like and it's really funny. Actually, I'm still on episode 2 *sweat drops* Yup, out of a total of 55 episodes. So far, it has me wondering, what if there was another me in a different realm. A smart me or me with longer hair. I would like to meet one of those mes' one day. Anyway, what's up with my Changmin obsession, I'm still in love him, hopefully this love will last for a while because he's really cute Anyway, I have to go outside one of these days, it's been 2 days since I haven't been outside, this is a record, usually I go out everyday. Also, today I was trying to learn Korean in honor of Changmin so far it's going..ok. But I prefer Japanese so much better. My Japanese, I think has improved. So far, i know how to read and write-some in Japanese. I took this quiz in the beginning of my studies and it said that my grammar is very good but I should work on other thing like my writing abilities and other stuff. What did I eat today? Well in honor of Changmin I had a big breakfast. Eggs,milk,bagel,orange,waffles and some other things and also some beef burritos and macaroni and cheese. That's a lot of stuff I ate right? Oh yeah, yesterday I made this really awesome Changmin banner! And the other days I changed my whole desktop to Changmin and even got a Changmin cursor. I thinking about ordering a Changmin shirt,spoon,solo CD and maybe a notebook or cellphone charm with him on it :D
I wonder what my alternate self is doing?
In case you were wondering, me and Changmin's marriage is going very well
Here's the banner I made:

Cute right?
♥Location: In my room
♥Mood: . hungry
♥Music: Clap-TVXQ/DBSK

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Written at Sunday, April 13, 2008 | back to top

I guess I have to be honest with myself. I'm not in love with Jaejoong...or at least that's what I'll keep telling myself until I believe it. Anyway, yes, I find myself smitten with Changmin instead, you know this took me by a big surprise because I realize that I'm making fun of him. Like him always yelling in songs and how his singing voice in 100% weird. But now I find myself actually...falling for him. I think it's obvious because me and Jaejoong clicked. Whenever I click with someone it never last because I always think someone else is way better than him or the person I like. But if I pick on them a lot. I actually fall in love with them. Despite him watching porn, Changmin is really handsome and we both have many things in common. Even though me and Jaejoong have way more in common, I think me and Changmin will work out. Today, I got married to him. Don't believe me?

Certificate of Marriage

This is to certify that
ChangMin Shim (Max)
Hanako Sanjyo
were married on
April 13, 2008

Certificate of Marriage

This is to certify that
Shim Changmin
Sanjyo Hanako
were married on
April 13, 2008

Yup he propose to me. *laughs* Oh well, today I had fun, I ate a lot and I happened to have excise too, only for a few moments though and also I even got to eat wedding cake and got to meet many of Changmin's family members . Even though I'm like 4-5 years younger than MAX we can make this work. I'll promise to become his biggest fan!
♥Location: In my room
♥Mood: . productive
♥Music: Two Hearts-TVXQ/Changmin(solo single)

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Lately, I've been going to the park. You know just to do stuff and swing on some swings and things, basically to get a way from it all since I really can't go anywhere. Anyway, I might go to the park or take copper out for a walk later today, because I'm really bored. Also, lately I've been watching my weight. Such as, I started eating carrots,yogurt and fruits more. Usually I would just eat those once every month and gorge myself on junk food like nutty bars,candy and ice cream but now I realized that now that I'm getting older my body is soon going to take shape on a I want my form to be really fit or at least skinny. Another thing I started doing is reading calories, if it's over 300 calories I don't eat it or I'll excise a lot then eat it or reverse. I hate watching what I eat because most of the time I forget or don't read the calories, but I know soon in the long run it will all pay off soon. That reminds me I'm having yogurt right now. I think for my hard work in keeping up this diet I should reward myself with a nutty bar,right?...maybe not. Anyway, once my mom leaves for work, I'm going to go walk copper and we're going to run and walk. Oh yeah, and if you haven't caught on yet, my dog is copper. Actually, Copper-lily to be exact !
♥Location: In my room
♥Mood: productive
♥Music: Shine-TVXQ/DBSK

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So, far it's been 2 1/2 days since Spring Break started for my school. Yeah, I know, our Spring Break is really late and it to top it off it does even last that long,sadly. I was just listening to TVXQ's Beautiful Life (Japanese ver.) and I really like that song. It surprisingly on my ipod and it's also surprisingly on my list of favorite DBSK songs, it has to work a little harder to become on my favorite song list. Even some songs just slip there way on there. Oh yeah, I was also listening to Xiah Junsu's: If?!... song and that's a good song. I thought it would be sort of stupid but it's actually really good. It's not on my favorite song list or my favorite DBSK songs list,yet. Anyway, on a sweet note, I had cereal today, it was sweet cereal,. Well, anyway, what I'm trying to say is that. I recommend those two songs. Remember: Xiah Junsu: If?! .. and TVXQ-Beautiful life(Japanese ver.)
I never listened to the Korean ver, but since I understand Japanese, I like the Japanese ver better. Oh yeah, I changed my blog opening song to TVXQ"s Beautiful Life...I guess you could say it has made my favorite song list.
♥Location: In my room
♥Mood: calm
♥Music: Beautiful Life-TVXQ

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Yay! Finally my cellphone works! And guess what!...nope not another TVXQ CD,but close. I'm on spring break and I'm pretty happy! And I'm also happy I'm posting this entry from my phone.let's make this quick: have a good day!
♥Location: Typing on my cell
♥Mood: happy
♥Music: Tri-angle-TVXQ/DBSK

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Written at Tuesday, April 8, 2008 | back to top

YAY! Today I had an interesting day. I'll tell you all about it after I finish listening to Beautiful You by TVXQ and after I'm done walking my dog. Today is a really pretty day, I wish I could take a picture but I can't because my dog literary drags me when I take her on walks. One time she dragged me, like 3 or 4 years ago and I had messed up my knees really bad and it was all my sister's fault. That's one reason why I don't like her now. Well, I just noticed something. When I messed up my knees/legs. That's when Jaejoong/Hero messed up his...I think. He messed up his knees or legs at 19,right? No probably 16. I don't know but i messed up my legs just like him. Wow, that's weird. Ok I'm going to go now. I'll try to take a picture.
♥Location: In my room
♥Mood: calm
♥Music: Beautiful You-TVXQ/DBSK

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I saw this really funny,yet sad movie called: 200 pound Beauty. It's a really good movie. I really enjoyed it. When I first saw it, I thought that it would be really bad or at least a very depressing. But it wasn't and it was really good. At the end I cried for at least 2-3 minutes. It was really good ! I think I'm going to continue watching more Korean movies, even though I should be watching more Japanese movies because I'm currently studying it and learning it. Ugh! Tomorrow I have gym, I wonder what I'm going to do...
♥Location: In my room
♥Mood: tired
♥Music: New Home-Fahrenheit

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