It's been a long run right?
Me and u. I've had my ups and downs. And I showed both my good and bad sides in this blog.
I'm now 16 years old. That's an adult in most countries and also old enough to get you thrown in jail in most states...(-.-)
And so I'm going to close this blog.
I feel like crying a little a bit because I've had this blog for so long, but I haven't posted in like 2 months and that's what leads me to say I'm going to end it here and start a new in another blog I just create.
Well not just created. I had it for about a few months now. It's really cool also.
It's PURE part II if you well.
Well, that's not the title but it's the theme (^_^)
Ok, well bye my friends and readers~
It's weird, I'm listening to Jay-Z's forever young when I type this.
Could that possibly be the theme song for this blog?

Hi everyone, I know where have I been in a while, right?
Haha (^_^)v!
Anyway, I've currently been reading the young adult book called, Hush,Hush by Becca Fitzpatrick.
I'm only on chapter 2 so I can't really say if I love or like the book but so far the book is really great. It reminds me somewhat of twilight.
The characters are quite vivid, also the story is quite funny also.
The only problem I have is some of the vocabulary, it's very challenging or at least there are a few words I should look up.
Here's a few:
-Derisive:mocking or taunting
-Inversion:An act of inverting
-Innuendo:Indirect information about a person or thing

Before I go to bed, I want to tell you how my day went.
Well, while I was in the Japanese book store called, Kinokuniya (???).
The first time I went the lady seemed nice, but the second time I went she seemed mean and confused.
The third time I went, she wasn't there and the service was nice~.
Basically, I went to the store 3 times in 1 day, haha, she probably thought I was stalking her or something.
I also went to Claire's and bought a lot of earrings (I'll take pictures).
And got about 4 Japanese magazines, have you ever noticed how heavy and big Japanese magazines are?
If you haven't they are quite huge. I bought 2 Cutie magazines, Vivi and an Arashi magazine.
They were really expensive~!
Well, overall I had fun at the mall, the shopping, the experience and the lights.
Something I could do without there? The people, the people were really rude or maybe that's just me, for you see I don't go out the house much lately.

YAY! We're going to Palisades mall today.
I really don't want to leave Joy-chan by herself but I will bring her back something great!
Oh, I feel bad now （；_・）
I WILL bring her back something terrific.
Also, while I'm there I'm going shop for earrings, I forgot my mom bought me a Claire's gift card so I'll be earring shopping like crazy~!
But still, once again I'm spending no more than $20.
(*´ο`*)=3 はふぅん I have to go now.
Bye~

Joy still refuses to play or hang out with me. I guess I should give her a few more days to get to know me and browse around her new home.
Today at SK was...a new experience for me. I learned that if stares could kill I would be dead and also I learned that helping out people gives me or anyone a great feeling inside them, right?
Aww, it's 10:22 p.m. already? I feel like the day hasn't even begun, but for some reason I'm getting sleepy （　´∀｀）!
I guess it's best if I do get some rest (hey that rhymed) because tomorrow we shall be going to the Palisades mall, we've(my family w/o Joy-chan) has been wanting to go for a lot time now. When I get there, there's a few places I would like to visit. Like for instance the Hello Kitty store they have there and a cool Japanese bookstore that sells a lot of Japanese and Japanese related stores, when I go I want to pick up a few Arashi CDs and Magazine, hopefully I don't go over my limit of $20.
Oh yeah, and don't forget to remind me that I have to go and buy a hamster ball, new food and new bedding for Joy-chan~!

Is today my first post if 2009? With me posting and creating new blogs you would think the last time I wrote in here was 2008, haha XD.
Today is Christmas, a day most people would call relaxing or even a fun day to spend with the family. My older sister isn't here so how family-oriented can you get,right? She makes everything fun or funny.
What did I receive on this bountiful day?
-A laptop (I'm using it now~)
-A hamster, I named her Joy but I might change it later.
-A necklace & earring set (gold, ewww, but for now I'll ignore it, I'm wearing the earrings and necklace now)
-A cellphone (It's the instinct, I've wanted that phone forever)
-A $200 debit/credit card
-A Barnes and Noble card (with the American girls on it :P)
-A yellow ipod (the newest one)
And probably some other stuff, but I just can't think about it...
Today, as a family, we are going to a homeless or soup kitchen and help serve the less fortunate people in our community, usually I wouldn't care, and I would agree to go. But I don't know, I feel like I shouldn't have to this on Christmas...basically I'm acting spoiled and I don't like that about myself.
What's going on now? Everyone is getting ready to go to the soup kitchen (SK) and Joy is sleeping. Hey, did you know I am really spent a little of my credit/debt card? I think I only spent about $24 dollars but still...That's a lot in my book.

Today I met with Christina- my Korean teacher who is 20 years old. She kept apologizing about missing me at the movie theaters but I'm OK with it, it was my fault actually-or even my mother's fault for not coming earlier when I reminded her I was suppose to meet her.
It seems like everything day I'm doing something for someone. Yesterday it was doing my sister's homework and now it's helping my friend Alice with draw pictures for her Spanish project. Well, I want someone to do something for me, for a chance.
My mom has 2 more days off, I'm happy. She's worked her hardest at her 2 jobs for several years she deserves a break, especially since she's always complains about them,too.

Why are sisters so cruel? I asked my sister if i could use her laptop just for a second and she says no, like a committed a crime or something. Well is that life?

Today is thanksgiving. Today started off as rocky but then got better, funny right? ^_^

I saw the new Fefe Dobson's music video, titled "I want you". And I must say, I hate the song and video. I'm into her old stuff, not her new stuff. Anyway, my point is. I want saw her hair and it was so cool! It was straight and black. I was always a fan of jet black hair and I mean always. I have brown hair, no more like a light brown and in the sun red hair. I don't like this medium of hair color. I want black hair! Hopefully, I get permission to get this done. If you don't understand, then check out my other blog, princess days (for short).
Oh yeah, I changed my blog layout to this really cute one. It's suppose to be a garden like it?

I started a new blog called, Nishizawa Hanako's 100 princess day. Haha, I liked the title and I realized that some of the things I write here, should be seperate. You know the un private things. On the S.H.'s 100 princess day blog I write about my family and their funny moment. The title is really different from the summary I just gave right?
That's it for now, see ya.

Each time I think about it. I get madder and madder. I had $180 in my bank account. My mother took the money out, as you know. She spend it on something-anything stupid. It was not food or drink for me or my brothers and sisters, so it's stupid.
I had planned to save that money for a rainy day or to spend on santagotchi. Another tamagotchi I would like feverishly.
But, instead, I now only have $36 in account and also $7 in my saving. I'm so angry, you really have no idea. My sister is suppose to call the bank and tell them what happen and hope they take pity on us. That will hopefully get my $100 back, but still, that 100, will be going towards my exmotchi which is $149. I want to put it on hold, but the man I'm buying it from Shinya, has already or hopefully has already bought it. And to make matters much worse, I forgot I bidded on item and must pay that within 7 days on a report will be filled on me for the 7th time! This is all terrible and it's all thanks to my mother. I knew something was up when she told me I had a negative in my account, I was thinking in my head, how can that possibly, be the cause. I know how to mange money, but that old demon stole my money! I weep each time I think about it, for it was not right for her to do such thing to I. I now have to save up every little penny from my next two pay check. I shall no longer pray for rainy days.

Did you know that I love the after taste of Green Tea? And do you know that I now leave the light on after last night when I saw the daddy long legs, and couldn't sleep. I went to my mom's room (my room from time-to-time) and ask her to kill it. She said she was too tried and told me to sleep in the room. I couldn't sleep in the bed after what happened...do you remember that? And so I slept on the floor. I believe she felt bad and so she went in the room and killed it with my shoe. My shoe! But I didn't care as long as it was gone. Would you believe me if I told you, in that saw day I killed a daddy's long legs off my counselor, Linda's shoe?
David called a total of 4x today, I didn't answer the 2,3,4th time because the phone died, and also I wasn't here. Even if I was here, I wouldn't want to talk to him. He likes to hear me laugh. I have been through a lot of stuff that I can't bring myself to laugh, so I fake laugh-alot. At him, my mom, and even sometimes my older sister. To spare them hurt feelings. When I fake laugh, I don't hurt myself at all. But am I hurting them when I fake laugh? Can they detect it?
I email alot people the other day about my desire EXmotchi. I will stop at nothing to get one of those genius toys. They will make a fine addition to my Tamagotchi collection. So far I only own a genjintch,musicstar and tamagotchi school. I use to own, much more than that, until one of my family members threw it out, I forgave them, but each time I think about it I feel so hurt and feel like screaming. Not so much thrashing them into the ground. I think as you grow up, you keep something from your childhood. Since, I'm still in my childhood, I plan to take my tamagotchi collection with me until I'm gray and old and pass them down to my children, that is...if they would like them. And that is..if I have children...people always compare me to my aunt. Who is not married, is a peacemaker, easily hurt, probably easy to muniplicate and determined and basically a saint, through and through. She doesn't have children and is not married and in this family that's a crime. And I, for one don't know why.

On a whim, I decide to create a Berryz Koubou/Kobo blog. I started one before but I deleted because someone was boring me terribly on it. Sort of like a stalker who called me names and plus I think people lost interest in it(that one was a lie, it was actually picking up nicely). Anyway, the new blog I have is so hot. And I know I said I never was going to get a Twitter and now I have one,sadly. I'm going to delete it soon. I see no reason in getting a Twitter when you can have a regular blog and post small entries. Of course, I could never post a small entry because my mind is always jampacked! But still I like talking anyway. Oh yeah here's a picture of my post from JE. I didn't get too comments about it, just 5-6 altogether but 1 person started the convo. So...

I feel complete

It's so interesting. Humans I mean. They say, "I won't do this anymore" or "this is bad" and do it anyway. Is it me or do I see the world way differently. Oh yeah, I never won the teen book contest, that I posted on so many of my blogs, I'm highly upset. Oh yeah and I almost forgot, I can cross this off the list of things I wanted to do in my life. It was to post a secret on secert post site. I put my own JE secrets, at first I wanted it to be Kpop, but instead I choose JE because I saw my new favorite Kat-tun member Ueda with an african american guy and they were laughing and joking and this gave me hope.
Pure, new found hope.

I don't know how that boy, David, smells like but whatever it is. Is not working for him. I want to say it's sweat, but I don't know. Wait, that must be it! Wait...no. Anyway, I'm fighting with someone, guy or girl it doesn't matter, about STAND, he thinks all STANDers are stupid just because they don't worship his or her girls' generation. It really sounds like a boy. Anyway, many things have been roaming my mind. And to this point I must express them out or I'm go crazy (this is easy to do) or explode.
1. My family is nuts as you
2. I don't want to talk to David anymore, he's not funny and everyone believes he gay and my mother believes he's psycho.
3. At this rate I'll be single forever, not like we were going out to begin with, psh!
4. This girl on Silent Tears the "stuck up one with glasses" is my new idol.
5. Even though I hate Jessica Jung I'm still really jealous of her.
6. I'm at my mom's job typing this and must look behind my back every sound I hear.
7. My mom just came and I gave her a quick talking to about reading people's diaries.
8. Anyway, it's hot back here and I'm sweating, maybe it could be because of the wool jacket I'm wearing.
9. My hair is short and I hate it but I'm not going to put ext. in my hair until school.
10. I might have to go to bishop maggin again, I don't want to! I want to go to Korea Kent Foreign School!!!
11. In the winter, I'm going to korea, I can't wait but I don't think it will happen, I don't even have a passport.
12. My sister got mad at me on Wed. because Chris's pamper wasn't changed and I didn't know about it. FYI, I didn't have the boy, so how what I know he's need his diaper change! Now, I'm kicked out of the room.
13. My mom's friends are bad people. So my mom hanging out with them makes her bad right?
14. I wish I had a great idol...
15. I love ekip high, I was listening to them all day, when it was raining.
16. New layout, I just changed it. As much as I love Namie. That skin is super old.
17. I can't lie anymore, I'm addicted to ebay and something I'm bidding on is about to end ^_^ It's a tamagotchi angel, US ed. It's pretty rare.

Haha! Koi no Hana and Pure are tied in post but not for very long. Do you know I feel like a man for coming back to this blog, when I want to. Really I have no shame!
Anyway, today I went shopping with my sister, David called me and told me he cut his hair and I told him I also did, which I really did I just took my extensions. I'm currently also active on a forum for teenagers who read books, like I. Also, I was offered a spot to become a library intern. My mom believes I will stick with this, but I won't because becoming a librarn is something I don't want to become when I get older. I really want to become a korean singer, like someone I admire and hate, Jessica Jung from Girls' Generation. But, really, if that's not acceptable then I would much rather become a teacher. And this is what I want to do with my life. At first this was all a little light laugh but now it's starting to get heavy because I'm suppose to meet with this women on Sat. August 8 and 9:00a.m. Yes, A.M.! Do I even wake up that early? On Sat, I finally got my genjintch and credit card at the same I was happy. I ordered my genjintch about a week ago and got it yesterday, that was quick,right?

Two post in one day I'm on a roll! Anyway, I'm tired of David, no he didn't call me and upset me like normal, but that's just the thing, he didn't call and so I decided that I don't like him anymore, it might take...a week but I think I'll be ok. Right?
Chris is crying, Monique is complaining and I'm tired.

What a sad cruel life I lead! Today I was terribly bored and had to find entrainment online. That's where I bid my heart out-well watch bidding, look for new books, signed up Simon pulse and went back to my daily routines of hating Jessica Jung. I really don't know why I hate her, I just do. Actually, I think I truly hate because I'm not, like she has this cold presence about her that I wish I had, I don't why, but to me it's cool and I use to harness this feature when I was really young. Anyway, I'm starting to feel a sting, more like a blow, I don't think I'm in love with David, but iI do wish he would call often and that I wouldn't be so mean to him, oh how I wish!
I think maybe he believes that I have mood swings and is sexist because of a few things I say but I can understand a little. Now, my sister is starting to hate me, not my younger sister for I could care less but my older sister, occ. we have fall outs but this one has got to be one of THE DUMBEST FIGHTS we have ever had. It was about her child's pacifier and if she was could control her child well, then she wouldn't need one!

I feel so very torn today, like always. All yesterday, and the days before I heard mother's side of the story, all today and days before I heard my older sister, Monique's side of the story. I wish I could escape this life. My mother is really terrible in away, she makes things dramatic and always wants things to be messed up but my sister monique is ignorant and proud and these all things they must fix. Me...I guess I'm sneaky for today I met David at the park and we walked around, tomorrow I hope to do the same thing but I'm not sure, I'm pretty mad at him, I mean at 5 something in the afternoon I thought I was talking to him on the phone, but then 3 minutes later I heard a man's voice! I think to myself, what's going on?! But they were fishing, and you all the concentration you can get when you're fishing, I would like to fish with sometime. I keep thinking of this boy, but I wish I could for it's not healthy nor good. But he likes me a lot and I like him...not alot though, just as a friend, but when I think to myself in my head I heard myself call him boyfriend, I don't understand this at all! For now, I'll flirt with him but if he asks me to become his girlfriend I will have to decline.
My sister is talking to her husband on the phone and they are discussing living matters, my sister is fed up with my mother and I'm afriad it my turn out to something terrible, again.
I wish I could confine David but everything I say to him could spread around or he could associate with my brother, even though it's my problem.
In other news, I was blindless bidding on ebay with my paycheck money and am are up to 57 dollars in debt! I should stop but I must by the Royal Diaries series lot of book, it's really a bargin you know. I sadly, lost the green mortha at a last minute bid, curse the person who won, they probably don't even know what or how to use it, they probably just want to add to their childish collection