I wish you guess knew how sad I am...I just found out that I won't be taking the test in science. I can only take it in August. I'm really upset, you don't know how mad I am. I should have just gone to see him and get the labs that were due. Oh my goodness, I'm so upset. On that day, I went to go see my sister give birth. My sister should take responsibility! But I know she won't and in a way she shouldn't have to...

Today I didn't participate in gym, and I feel very incomplete. What can I say, I was ultra lazy today. It was sad,grayish day. Usually one of my favorite types of days, but I today was different. Anyway, forget about gym it has already happened. I would rant about a boy that had asked me out in the beginning of the year but since I turned him down, he's now "starting" to like my friend,Alice. It's a really crazy life I lead,I guess.

Today it's gray and white outside. I really love it when it's like this. But sometimes I don't. I have many things on my mind, to name a few:
1.I have no idea what to do about my history project
2.My friend called me out the blue, and I'm confused
3.I want to go outside and swing, but I don't want to leave my sister and brother here in the house alone.
4.My tamagotchi-Hana, asks very weird. Why?
5.I think my new favorites in MM is Junjun or Eri, but I still like linlin of course
6.All my tamagotchi and linlin book of photos are gone.
7.American idols now are a days are really lame.
8.I wonder how many days of school, I have. I want it to all be over. We get out for SB on april 10.
9.Should I watch YAMD? I don't know,really..
10.I hate homework.
11.I have gym tomorrow and I 100% hate gym, I seriously hate it~!
12.At night, every since I saw that scary movie, I watch my back more than ever now.

Just a few things going on in my mind. #1 and #11 is really eating at me.
I was going to call my friend and ask but I don't have her number and my other friend has no idea what we are doing! I really don't want to go to school tomorrow, but I have to,sadly. I think I've missed to many days.

I'm sort of happy,sort of upset. Happy because I got a new tamagotchi to add to my collection, it's called Tamagotchi:Music Star, which is basically v6. The sad part is yesterday I spend the day,mostly crying and moping because my tamagotchis' are all gone, someone threw them out. I'm really...What the word. It's starts with a P and ends with an D. And in between is two Ss'. That's about as close to the word as I can get. I mean really-I'm very upset. When I get 100 dollars for my report card and hopefully it's very good. I shall study for math test, maybe later. Maybe (^_^). I hope I get a really good report card so I can get all the tamagotchis I lost and want. For example:
Tamagotchi V2
Tamagotchi V3
Tamagotchi V4
Tamagotchi V4.5
Tamagotchi V5
Tamagotchi Angel
Harenrotchi
Tamagotchi Morino and possible Exmotchi.
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I really want a Exmotchi!!!!

Today is Sunday, the least day of the week that I like. One because it's always so sad for me and also because school the next morning. Now, that I think about it, I think it's sad because of school, haha. Anyway, G_M one of my best friend blog friends, no longer has a blog for some reason. It's very sad, for her,rai and I were the 3 blog amigos or blind mice(aren't there 9?)-now me and rai are just the 2 amigos,aigo you really tell how upset I am. This morning I was crying because of it also, call me a baby I don't care.
In the meantime I have grades,sibling's science fair projects and home to worry about-sadly. My life is very stressful at the moment, but sort of not. While I deal all those things I have writing stories and browsing for reward items to keep me happy.
For example: I'm writing a story about a WonderBang-that's my favorite celebrate coupling.
And also for finishing my sibling's science fair projects. My mom has to reward so I want any of these possible things:
False Nails
Rings (I'm starting to become addicted to jewelry now~)
Hair clips,pins and holders (I'm starting a collection)
Earrings (I'm in need for earrings)
Music/CDs (Give me up-nami tamaki, Truth-arashi, or any f.t.island or bigbang albums)
I'm at lost with all of these things.

Maybe it's just me being a drama queen or something but I feel extremely upset today. First, no one in my household but my mom remember that my birthday was today. My friends didn't even remember so I had to remind them...my English teacher remember because he got a reminder on his computer about it. Today, in order to make it up to me for not having a party of anything my mother took to me Dunkin Donuts and we order lattes and coffees. My mom said that was my birthday cake... Overall, I didn't drink all of mine I let it set my locker all day in hope of drinking it later at the end of the day, but when I took it out my locker(yes, it was all slimy and stuff) but I going to drink it anyway, because it was "my birthday cake" but my a person's locker is next to mine asked me if I wanted it or not. I have bad habit of letting people walk over me. So when she asked I said no,she could have it. Later, it hit that she was drinking my birthday cake! Now it makes me laugh but before it made me cry. I will never understand this day or myself....

Today when I stayed home from school, some weird events have happened, like first me not blogging everyday,that's weird, and also today I don't know if it's because I had bad tea or ate something bad but I keep looking out of the side of my eye, and out of the side of my eye I keep seeing someone,maybe it was Changmin drenched from water and just standing there with a mad expression as if the person wants to kill me or something. Maybe I'm just freaking out because I wrote a 2 page essay on thematic religions. What do you think? I'm going crazy? Lol, I could be...but in Wonderland were all crazy ^_^
Wait! Maybe I am going crazy if I'm quoting Cheshire Cat.
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♥Location: My room being scared to death
♥Mood: happy,should I be?
♥Music: Stop the Music-Namie Amuro

I just really realized I never did an E-spark. But whatever, I feel that I must get something off of my chest. *takes deep breath* Ok, well, first, me and Changmin are back together, that means all of you Changmin fangirls had your 5minutes with him, he's back to me!!!*insert evil laugh*
Also,has anyone heard the new BoA's English song I really like. As many Americans here in New York say: "that was really tight" Haha, wow, slang is so much fun. Like the new layout, I was tired one day after making a few other Changmin layouts and I decided to use this one, it's not my best I know. Anyway, another thing, I think my family has gone crazy.
-Father-Very abusive
-Mother is going bulimic
-My brother is secretly dating(when he's not suppose to)
-My little sister of 11 has an online boyfriend who is of 13 or 18(don't remember)
-Little brother thinks boys are cute.
-Older sister is dating a boy who's family does not like her
-Grandmother is going crazy and the family is thinking of putting her in a insane home.

I feel like I'm the only sane one...Well, when I'm not thinking of Changmin, which is rare, but seriously, I do feel like I'm the only sane one in this house. Just had to rant a little there.
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♥Location: In in my room watching Speed Racer
♥Mood: Tired
♥Music-Eat you Up-BoA Kwon

I just realized some new things about myself. I cry very easily now, except whenever I'm around my father. When I'm around him all I want to do is kill him or just say something really rude and runaway. Lately, that's been on my mind a lot also, running away to one of my friend's house. I know they sense a lot of trouble at home. Anyway, yup, I think this or the next thing might be the last straw for me. My dad, whenever he gets mad he always chokes or hits me and this isn't good. I really want to call the cops on him for child abuse but I know my mom would probably be really mad at me. Luckily, I have a blog to let things out...
Well, on a happier note, me and Changmin's marriage is going along just fine. He came back to Japan a few days ago and now we can eat again
Oh yeah, about the Juno movie, I like it it's really interesting, I'm kind of tired, I'll tell you more about it tomorrow or later on today. I also changed the blog music again to my husband's song, I really like this song. I also like WILD SOUL,too.
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♥Location: In my room
♥Mood: sleepy
♥Music: Somebody to Love-TVXQ/DBSK

Today, I went over to BFF's house and we watched TV, search online for nose jobs and talk about her crush. All in all it was a fun day, until I came home and saw pictures of Jaejoong crying. I was really heartbroken seeing them. It made me cry for a few moments and then I realized, that sadness, is really from your heart and that you can't control it and when you love someone or something that much you cry...deep right? I thought so too, oh yeah, I'm fine now, I'm not sick anymore. Tomorrow, should be fun-not! I have volleyball, and for the past few days I've really sucking at the game and people keep yelling at me when I miss. It's really annoying. I'm still highly upset that Jaejoong was crying. But for some reason I can't cry...well, it comes out but I'm not sure if it's for him. Nope it is, I don't want to drag on, I'll get to the point and say, that for the past few days I was working on bringing up some of grades in a few class. Yup, I'm not sure if the crying is for him or for myself, I think it's a mixture of both. I want to say for him, but whenever I try to cry again for him I blink it back, because image him being strong, aquarius' are very strong most of the time....most of the time.
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♥Location: In my room
♥Mood:sad
♥Music:Flavor of life-Utada Hikaru